Pursuing Passion

This might be a long post since i haven’t blogged in a while so i apologize in advance.  My life has been (and will continue to be) devoted to putting together our middle school musical, set to open March 7th and 8th.  If your free and around, i’ll totally hook you up with free tickets   Anyway, enough excuses, here’s something thats been on my mind…

I wanted to post the lyrics of this worship song, because its not only one of my favorite to play (especially with pete horning), but i love the message behind it and it sort of relates to the rest of this post:

From the Inside Out – Hillsong United 

A thousand times I've failed
Still Your mercy remains And should I stumble again
I'm caught in Your grace
Everlasting
Your light will shine when all else fades
Never ending
Your glory goes beyond all fame

Your will above all else
My purpose remains
The art of losing myself
In bringing You praise
Everlasting
Your light will shine when all else fades
Never ending
Your glory goes beyond all fame

In my heart and my soul
Lord I give You control
Consume me from the inside out
Lord let justice and praise
Become my embrace
To love you from the inside out

Everlasting
Your light will shine when all else fades
Never ending
Your glory goes beyond all fame
And the cry of my heart
Is to bring You praise
From the inside out
Lord my soul cries out

Now here’s something that’s been perplexing me.  It is my firm belief that God creates us all with specific passions.  We also, in our state of free will, have our own dreams.  Now I also believe that if we are doing our best to follow His calling and ask him to guide that following, our dreams and passions should align with His calling.  Not that we go through the motions and then say, “ok i did my part, now bless me with my dreams”, but I truly believe that our minds and wills go through a transformation that ultimately coincides with God’s plan for our lives.  This gets me pumped up and i do my best to make this my prayer everyday.  At the same time, i get nervous, or maybe unsure of my commitment to this, because i know God blesses in many ways.  Sometimes he blows us away and blesses us so abundantly we have to wonder if it is really happening.  Sometimes he blesses us through a path that we never saw coming and wonder…”what the crap was that all about?”  And sometimes he does both at the same time.  I don’t know if this makes sense or not (which if it doesn’t…tough, its my blog), but i just worry that these situations are something that I’m creating with out realizing it and crediting it Him, or if they are truly God’s leading.  Know what i mean?  I don’t know, its hard for me to explain.  Maybe someone can relate…